Tuesday, February 05, 2008

On Sabbatical

Okay, so maybe it's not that bad; I might not be gone that long. But I recently discovered leaks in my roof which are causing me stress (something about ice dams compromising metal roof joints. Who da'thunk?). And stress is really not the word for it. Heart failure, maybe? Despair? Tunnel-vision where I've yet to see the light? I'm not sure. But right now it's all I can muster to make a living and take care of my children (Last night that I-am-mamma-so-everything-will-be-okay-because-I-can-manage-it facade slipped from my face and I began to cry. It was a weep-fest and we all cried together. --I'm still feeling guilty for letting my children in on that little secret--I CANNOT manage it all).

Whatever doesn't kill you, right?

19 comments:

Life As I Know It said...

Oh, no! You poor thing. Sounds like you have more than any one person should have on their plate.
Hoping things get better and more manageable for you.
Hang in there!

Karen (Pediascribe) said...

(hugs)
I don't think it's such a bad thing for the kids to see you cry. They'll be more likely to show their true emotions as they grow.
Nobody's perfect. We can't do it all alone.

karla said...

Oh dear. My thoughts are with you Shauna.

RachelT said...

Shauna,

I am so sorry to hear about your struggles. If the Camel wasn't dead before, then he is worm bait for sure now!

We will be eagerly waiting your return.

SuburbanCorrespondent said...

Poor baby! Life can be overwhelming at times. Just try to focus on one thing at a time. Then tell me how to do that, so I can do it, too.

Janice said...

Oh hun, when it rains it pours I guess.
My husband has been so worried about the ice situation on our roof, he pulls the snow down after every snow fall with a roof rake. My sis-law just had some damage done to her brand new house do to this same problem. The melting water has gone into her bedroom, down the wall, and also on the family room over the sliding glass door. What a mess, I am so sorry.

Gustogirl said...

Shauna, I am sorry to hear about the roof!! Like you didn't have enough to deal with already?!!!!! I wish I was there to bring you a hot meal and watch your kids for an hour or two so you could have some "me" time.

MELODRAMA MAMA said...

Oh Shauna -
I am so sorry about your roof! Take care of yourself while on sabbatical - know that you will be missed!

Karen said...

Oh sweet. I've got your back.

JaniceNW said...

Letting you feel the love and I know you'll be fine vibes.~~~~~~~~
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^^^(vibes)

Thinking of and praying for you!!

HUGS!

linds said...

So sorry Shauna! I'll miss you.

Spammon said...

Why are beavers building damns on your roof? Thankfully its the last of the storms before the rainy season. But at least it won't be ice.

AZ MOM said...

Shauna, my theory is that God will test us especially when he is preparing us for something special.
You must have something incredible in your future for him to keep throwing you these curve balls!!
Chin up...it will get better, I'
ve been there and I can tell you it is true.

Erin said...

Winter sucks! Sorry about your roof---let's move to Hawaii!

Eileen said...

Sending love and hugs. Let me know if I can help. I don't know how, but I wish I could. I'm here.
XOXOXO

slackermommy said...

I hate when I lose it in front of my kids but it's good for them to see that we are human. I hope things start looking up and at a dry ceiling very soon.

Kapuananiokalaniakea said...

Yes, whatever doesn't kill you. AND, good for you for being able to be a real human being with your children!!

PS. Come over for a visit. Even though you're taking a sabbatical, I've got an award for you. It won't fix your roof, but hey, a little positive recognition can't hurt!

Kristi O said...

Come to Lewiston and make the EX fix the roof, afterall its all his fault right? I mean... in the grand scheme of things... everything is his fault.. Hang in there pal. Praying for peace and a miracle.

Eileen said...

I know your technically on Sabbatical, but It's 3am, I can't sleep, and i'm Up in the night, and I just want you to know I am thinking of you. I miss your posts, this is true, BUT, I mostly hate that the past few months have been so trying for you.
Your ex should be helping you more. I hope he is, they are his kids too, and God know he doesn't want them living with leaks.
I meant it when I said, if you need me, let me know. I'm just an e-mail or phone call away.
XOXOXO